Touching my inner critic was a tearing apart of what I had known. Once I was able to identity what was preventing me from writing I was able to move ahead. This catalyst freed me up to construct writing goals that actually yielded productive results.
Correcting my self-defeating mind-set began to uplift the expectations I was experiencing and unconsciously placing on my unwritten manuscript.
Realizing I had to do more than just correct my self-defeating thoughts like fear of rejection, and incapable. I knew that those feelings were not the root cause of why my writing was not progressing. I had to go deeper.
So, I began to dig deeper to uncover the root feelings like ashamed in the eyes
of friends and family for turning my back on my nursing profession. Moreover,
I felt like a fraud because I had not been formally trained to be a poet or writer.
Those were demons I had to face if I wanted to get passed chapter 1.
Woo what powerful insights to uproot my inner critic! Share with us the negative roots you are or have been digging up to uproot your inner critic?
Here is the poem of the Inner Critic arising from my inner most self.
The faultfinding judge
Hung around for days
Refusing to leave
Verbalizing endless accusations
You are bad
What good can come from you?
Around and around
This senseless mindless babble
Defines the who I am
Negative neurological imprinting
This learned social neurological
Cultivation of word consciousness
Becomes a nagging problem
Caught in a web of endless words.
Displacing the inner critic
Telling it to get lost
Sets in motion positive change
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